“Cinderella is proof that a new pair of shoes can change your life”. – Noortje de Bijl
It was one of those times in my life that I felt I was drowning. Drowning in sorrow as my mom had just recently passed (this happened in December 2014, Mom passed March 2014), in fear of not finding a company who will properly compensate me, and lastly in doubt that I can go through all of this alone. It felt so heavy and agonising to carry a cross so heavy that felt like forever to get up. I was so down as losing my mom hadn’t really sunk in yet and now this. It’s all mixed emotions, everything is happening all at once and I haven’t really taken time to properly grieve for my mom and now I’m grieving for more new things — loss of hope, confidence and my self-esteem.
That was the longest four months of my life. The depression, the anger, the self doubt are slowly creeping in. Not wanting to see nor talk to anyone. I always weigh things when going out as I have to minimise spending. I was in a point of having thoughts of just going back home to start all over. At least back home I have my family to support me and I don’t have to pay rent. Just when I thought I’m on the edge of quitting — savings are almost done due to all my payments (rent and loan), interviews were coming in left and right. At the end of it, I have four companies waiting for my acceptance and just couldn’t believe it. I was over the moon, my luck had just turned or simply my prayers were answered. I am not meant to go home yet.
This was my first time losing a job and not the last. The second time was a bit easier as I have the knowledge of the things I need to do and I’ve seen for myself the worst scenario which I don’t want to be in again. It’s draining to be that person and was killing every aspect of my being.
Through this experience I want to impart things I’ve learned which might help to slightly lighten your load and for me to look back If I will be in the same situation again.
Be Prepared for anything. Anything can happen. When everything seems so certain and stable, just think it only seems that way but it’s NOT. Always be prepared to be expendable, as we employees are. Change is the only constant thing so be ready for anything to come.
Save. I couldn’t reiterate it more. I know it’s not easy but you can start little. It will help to lessen the burden on payments and other things.
It’s ok to disconnect and be upset. It’s a normal feeling to feel this way. But be cautious not to fall too hard as you need to vent and let your feelings out. You need people at some point to share or just to even listen to what you have to say. Just let it all out. Don’t dwell on these feelings for too long as this might eat you up. Yes, let it sink in and be quiet for a while. Feel the quiet, the peace and have a shake after. Find outlets to make you feel good. Shout it out if you can and be ready to work on things to move forward.
You’re going to be ok. Things happens for a reason. Sometimes it leads you to something better. You may probably just need to let go of things for you to be able to grasp onto new and better things. Sometimes it’s also just a push towards something more suitable and far greater than what you have. It may not seem so easy at first, but believe me when I say that things don’t stay like this forever. It will change for the better, and when that time comes, you’ll just look back on this time and be proud of what you’ve done and accomplished.
If you’re in the same situation like me before or just end up reading this coz you’re my friend☺️, just remember that there are other people who are in a worse situation than you; that you are far better off to just sulk and feel bad about yourself. Stand up, Move forward and plan what’s next.
CHArmed Life 